“STA1RS 2 A1R”

Drowning myself in love
In murky waters
Rising up, here to me
Here is the possibility, I’m growing smaller
(Ah)
Keeping my eyes, on the being in the water

I, know no way from here
And I, is here there
Breathe in deoxidized steel
I, is here there?

Let me be
Let me breathe
I’m, suffocating from the thought of losing my mind
Let me be
Let me breathe
I’m, suffocating from the thought, of losing me, this time
I wanna’ be free, I need my own identity, release me
Let me be
Let me breathe
I’m, suffocating from the thought of losing me

Here’s where I might not want to be
These murky waters
Rising up, here to me
I let myself rise to the sun, these murky waters
I, keeping my eyes, on the being in the water

I, know no way from here
And I, is here there
Breathe in deoxidized steel
I, is here there?

Drowning myself love
Answers below above

Let me be
Let me breathe
I’m, suffocating from the thought of losing my mind
Let me be
Let me breathe
I’m, suffocating from the thought, of losing me, this time
I wanna’ be free, I need my own identity, release me
Let me be
Let me breathe
I’m, suffocating from the thought of losing me

Tell me sweetly, I lie, on these summer days
Look around me, I see the swimmers play
Breezy haze, in a daze, while I dunk myself beneath
Tell myself to breathe
These murky waters
I’m
Keeping my eyes, on you

Another song about my anxiety, it’s one of the first songs I considered complete as an adult. I used to sing it first, right after a little intro called “Breathe” during performances as a way of both being vulnerable and allowing myself to get out all of the kinks specifically caused by my anxiety disorder flaring up. It’s a song about my unhealthy relationship with my mind at the time and it points out the counterproductive behavior that arose from that relationship.

Here is a little demo of me singing the song with a beat I made. It’s not mixed lol and I’ve changed a bit of the lyrics since I originally wrote this years ago and typed it this year, on here. <3